I spent 30 years in CA fighting these type of fires and be a paramedic on top of it. I have long felt that every response I ever made,every patient I ever touched gave me something or taught me something. I never walked away from a fire and did not learn something of myself or the men I worked with. I know of only 3 career paths that require your full attention(you or other people die) for the duration of your career,military/LE,medicine and firefighting.I had 30 years of education formal and informal, nature of the beast changes in moments.My biggest fear in this incident is that some bad decisions were made,to kill 19 knowing what we know about fire behavior,tactics/strategy,fuels,aspect, weather. This flat out should not have happened, regardless of what they were trying to protect, a few remote buildings, grass, trees.Somebody did not watch out for what was happening on that mountain, they should have not been there. Every move you make one thought is in your head, if this goes to shit which way is out, you always, always have your back up plan and exit. Nothing on this earth is worth what those families are going through.There's a reason it's been 80 years since we killed this many firefighters on a wildland response or any response.